Im not sorry anymore.

Well guys here i am again. Had not slept since yesterday night. Was a little under the weather these past few days but i think now its getting better since ive already went to the doctor today. MC!! yeay no school on a Friday. Gosh i hate it when im sick. Was about to go to school when my mum called asking me to go to the doctor instead. HAHA!! Talk about timing. Bad news on the other hand regarding my project!! at the last minute it wont work as what i expected it to be. I was like argh!!! at this time when it is only a few days before the final judging. Quickly came up with a contingency plan to counter the problem. Hope that it will go my way next week.

Yeah likewise its the same old routine, school home and the usual peeps. Over and over again.
Im like disappointed about today!! The meeting of us 3 today was cancelled!! argh!!! its because im sick!!! There is this certain someone whom is afraid that i would pass the germs over to her. Thanks eh!! HAHA!! just joking!! treating me to ermm.. anything is still on ok?? LOL!!! I will be looking forward next week hopefully after the judging is over and going out with you 2!!! yeay!! haha!! im like a small kid when it comes to this kind of stuffs!! i like!!

last but not least, a friend of mine commented on my facebook status :
"It means that you are a caring and faithful person."
I was saying: "thinks that "argh!!! why do i still bother why do i still care??!!! theres' just something that keeps pulling me in!!"
he added: "Blink Blink* be positive and start forgiving. Remember, God is always there if you sincerely ask from him. ;)"

Wow!! never thought of it that way before. Thanks Yan for the thought. So thats where the tittle of the post came about. Should I?? its hard for me to forgive someone that easily. Haiz.. we'll see how... Till then.

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Gosh i cant believe it seh. Im sick!! like sick as in sick. Gosh with all these fuss around and i can be sick?? gosh i hope its just the normal flu that i always have. *paranoid* Aiyah with less than 1 week to go for the final judging and im down with a flu. What more 'saddening' thing is that mun asked me out this Friday when im sick and seriously low on cash!!! HAHA!!! why cant it be the weekends cause ill be abit richer. Haiz.. alot of things on my mind currently. this that this and everything around me. ARGH!!! cannot 'tahan' with all these nonsense. I wanna solve the so called 'dispute' which im currently having. I kinda miss her though. *sad* Cant believe that she cried because of me. Her crying?? thats something you never see everyday. Ok just got back actually from hanging out downstairs. Tities friend mira was there also. She was loud and her laughter is so odd!! you can make music out of her laughter. LOL!! ok ok ill end here. gotta catch some sleep for school later on at 12. Till then taking care.

Imnotsorryanymore.

Well well. Two weeks of school break really seems to fly by so fast and before you know it school is reopening tomorrow. Time flies so fast when you ermm.. doing basically nothing!!!! apart from work and stuffs that is. Yeah, school will be reopening today as a matter of fact and im still awake!!! HAHA!! yeah its the body lah. Lonely at home as the rest is on a holiday. Hungry but cannot eat. HAHA!! trying to extend for 2 weeks and i cant wait to see the results. Gosh judging day is nearing soon and im so nervous!!! i cant help but wait for it to be over and done with. last but not least i want to say is that, gosh i did not believe i went back there over this weekend with sidi and the tities. They wanted to eat there. Well guess all you want guys but im not saying where we ate. Well that place sure bring back memories. Cant stop thinking about it though. Sat down and keep looking up wondering whats' she is doing. Is she getting ready to go out? or is she still online? Saw her online before i went out. Well no point dweling in this lah. OK i guess i end here for the time being. Taking care and see you guys soon.

imnotsorryanymore

"He was her life,she was his story.Their love come to an end, she lost her best friend."
Is this phrase cool like shit or what?? HAHA!!! came across this when i was surfing around looking for.. ermm.. songs. Came across when i was watching a fan made video of a certain song. The moment i read the line i was captivated by it. It just makes so much sense into whatever is happening around me. UHuh!! just remembered. Man asked me this question. "what lost bestfriend?" i guess he was refering to my name on msn. I shrugged off saying "no lah nothing" haha!!! i continued "the phrase is just cool lah in a sense" hahah!!! he was like "YEAH RIGHT!!" "i know you well ayoub". haha. then he suddenly typed 'myopia is dangerous always" I was like huh what the hell!!! haha. what is that suppose to mean?? he say look at the words that i used properly. Then i was like oooo... i know where are you getting at now. HAHAHAH!!! mepek uh si diktu. LOL!!

Yeay!!! cant wait for my cousin to get maried this coming july. Can get together with all of the family members and i can meet Kak Neng!!! YEAY!!! she flew all the way from jakarta here. We want to discuss about her wedding this coming NOV. YEAY!!, can visit my family members over there. Its been a long time seh!! yeah last but no least, just wanna say that work will be over on Friday. So the following week will be school as usual. ok i guess i will end here and will rant here soon ok.

ps: this is what she wrote on her msn sub name "all i want is U... to be my bestfriend....& stop giving me the cold shoulder....." is this for ermm.. me?? i guess it is. wanted to ask but knowing what i will get in respond to my question so i guess it would be good not to ask. BAH!!

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I just wanna make a quick note here. This song just keeps repeating over and over again in my head. It just cant get out of my damn bloody head!!! Ive changed the previous song to this damn song. I dont know why but i cant get it out. It keeps playing in my head. Well i guess its the lyrics of this song. ARGH!!!!!!!! not this again?? Haiz.. had a short but brief conversation with 'jane' just now over facebook. AHAHA jane konon!!! Yeah talked about what happened and so on. I said you go listen to this song which is playing on my blog. It relates so much to what i experienced.
and bla bla bla and and thats about it. Shall not dwell into it so yeah i guess thats about it. LOL!!
ok gotta catch some sleep cause im bloody working later on at 9!! okok taking care. see you guys soon.

imnotsorryanymore.

"all this time ive been wasting, hoping you would come around." - Taylor Swift

That line from the song really gets to me somehow. Well i guess thats how im feeling right now.
LOL!!! funny and stupid you might say. HAHAHA!!! yeah come to think of it , im laughing my ass off thinking back on how things used to be back then. OK i guess im 'CRAZY'. Well someone called me that yesterday. HUH!! BAH!! watever!!! The feeling of 'HATE' is starting to fill me.
Once i hate, i wont turn back on my feelings. Well i guess thats for sure.

Ok enough of such things and lets get to the brighter side of things. To start of work was ok!! Even though its for only a week i really appreciate it. HAHA!! Cant wait to start school and get my MP judging over and done with. After that t would be a smooth sailing journey with only projects and assignments to deal with. Yesterday 'lepaking' session was funny like hell!! Ah Kat came with atika and come to think of it she is a fun and good person to be hanging out with despite the fact she and atika was 'so and so' last time. Ermm... lets not go there shall we. Or else there will be people at my necks. HAHA!!

I shall end here for now. Taking care everyone and ps: so what im im crazy!! BAH!!

Imnotsorryanymore

Its finally up. The blog i mean. Ive decided to go back to blogging to fill in my time since.. eerrmm.. ok lets not go there. A new layout with the same tagboard and links. I hope the links are not dead or something like that. Alot of things happened these past few weeks. Theres no happy ones but the bad ones keep coming one after another. It is said that bad 'things' happen for a reason. Well i hope thats true. My grand dad 'Dahri Bin Sunan' just passed away a week ago. Thats one really 'SAD' news. May God bless his soul 'Amin'. Before i got to know that, something bad already happen to me. Well i didnt see it coming though, but i can tell that the tell tale signs are already there. Well things happens for a reason. GO FIGURE!!

Ok i guess i shall cut it short since im working tomorrow. Ill be covering Ahmad for a week at his workplace since he is going for a holiday. Yeay!! at least there is some pocket money for me this coming july. Ok last but not least, i would like to ask you guys to look out for the link 'cookies' this coming july. HAHA!! again GO FIGURE!!!. Ill end here. Taking care.

ps: listen to the lyrics to this song by TheScript tittled Breakeven. It relates to what im feeling. Cool uh?? BAH!!

Imnotsorryanymore.